grope for
Verb
Meaning
feel searchingly
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Examples
The mark of a true crush... is that you fall in love first and grope for reasons afterward.
I think in defeat you grope for things that are happy, and it's hard.
Call it vanity, call it arrogant presumption, call it what you wish, but I would grope for the nearest open grave if I had no newspaper to work for, no need to search for and sometimes find the winged word that just fits, no keen wonder over what each unfolding day may bring.
She groped for his keys in the dark