Noun
suckiness (uncountable)
(slang) The state or condition of being sucky; inferiority or badness.
I quit drawing (not after the first or second suckiness, more like the fiftieth or sixtieth) but I could just never bring myself to quit writing. Source: Internet
Not just in my art suckiness, but also in how much I felt like an outcast in my own family, and when you're a kid spending a lot of time with your family it means feeling really, really alone. Source: Internet